Sunday, January 22, 2017

Racheal's Day Out

Today, Jordan, Racheal and I went to our first "Social Outings" training. I'm always a little anxious when I try something new, but this was a really rewarding experience.

Racheal has been a challenge. This class (along with classes we've had with other trainers) reminds us that Racheal is full of potential. I tell her that at least once a day.  

Monday, January 9, 2017

A Few Happy Thoughts

I watched the Golden Globes last night and was surprised by how emotional I got in some places. Like, Ryan Gosling sending his love out to Eva and dedicating his award to her brother. The sweetness of it touched me.

And Meryl Streep's speech was excellent. 

In other news, Racheal got a new toy that she has completely annihilated. She's quite proud.

It's been so cold that Jacob got to wear his new sweater.

Speaking of sweet Jacob...he is going to be the next one to get some intense re-training. He's having possessive issues. It's hard being the only dog for 8 years and then having a giant sister come into your life.

These are a few happy thoughts to get us started in the new year.


Tuesday, January 3, 2017

2017's Great Start

We went to a real old fashioned New Year's Eve party. One of my friends was making her plans and reached out to the rest of us in our quartet to see if we were in town and/or wanted to join her. 

Answer: UH, YES!

I can't even tell you how much fun it was. Dinner was ribs and they were excellent. Music was an incredible Blues Band that was so much fun! 

There is nothing better than live music!! It was one of the MOST FUN New Year's Eve celebrations ever.

Here's hoping that 2017 is as wonderful.

Monday, January 2, 2017

The Year that WAS

I want to come up with my new (2017) New Year's word. But I haven't. I want to write down my intentions for the new year...but I'm blocked. I thought I would get inspiration from looking back at the 2016 New Year. You know I like to do a "re-cap" on a postcard of some of the best moments each year. {See:  New Year's Eve 2015 }

Let’s just say 2016 was no 2015.

Here's what I wrote about 2015:


So, what about 2016? I started out the year with good intentions. You know what they say about good intentions...they make an a$$ out of you and me. Oh, did I mix my metaphors? Well, you know what I mean.

In January I treated myself to a month of private sessions with the perfect Yogi. She was exactly who I needed to help me. 

I still went to my yoga studio regularly, minus one day a week. 

The private yoga was good for me to step out of my comfort zone. You know, the whole point is for the teacher to give feedback and help you into the poses for the most benefit and with the least chance of injury. But that means I actually had to be vulnerable enough to be seen. That may sound like nothing, but it is NOT nothing. 

I was also very worried in January. I felt guilty for indulging in private yoga. Money was tight and time was tight. This was time I wasn't working or being with my husband.

That may sound very 1950s, but, I knew on some visceral level that my husband was not well. 

I don't want the year to be defined as the year of JM's diagnosis. But, there is no denying that finding out what was wrong and trying to find treatment took up almost all of my conscious moments.

I am not satisfied that I have done enough to get the right treatment. Here we are, seven months later and I'm not settled on the right course of action. 

By July I realized I could not keep up. It has become more important to JM that I am home in the evenings...which means it's more important to me. Confusion and a sad feeling of being lost and alone sets in when the sun goes down. If I'm home before sunset he does not have to experience that feeling. 

We also obtained a service dog. It never ever occurred to me that this would not be the panacea.  The challenges that we have experienced never entered my mind. 

Well...needless to say, there are challenges. 

Even so, there are moments of serendipity and pure happiness.



One of the things I pondered in early 2015 that still make me smile. I call it the INFJ dilemma:

That is so me!  Although, I've been working on it.